Adulthood keeps sneaking its way into my life, unseen until a moment of sudden clarity.
When you’re younger, I don’t think you ever fully understand what an Adult is; you go from day to day, week to week, year to year, and you just accept that one day you will become an ‘Adult’. That never happens. You’re still the same, you’re just suddenly making slightly more adult choices and, depending on your living conditions, this can happen slowly or rapidly before you even realise.
You may know by now I’m a huge gamer; I LOVE games. My monthly pay cheque is always spent before it arrives, preordering the latest releases or picking up a new board game to play… at least it used to be.
This weekend saw the launch of the Nintendo Switch, the latest Nintendo console complete with the latest Legend of Zelda game: Breath of the Wild. Zelda is one of my personal favourite series of all time; it fills me to the brim with utter excitement, it pulls at my stomach with nostalgia. As normal, I preordered the Switch as soon as I could and watched it sat there in my Amazon basket.
I love buying things on day one. I love being part of that exclusive club; those playing it first, discovering it first and being able to experience something ahead of spoilers and ahead of other impressions. When the Xbox One and the PlayStation 4 released within a week of each other, I took a week off work and bought them both. I’d just started a new job, with a considerably higher pay cheque, and by saving enough away for two months I had them both in my hands. It only seemed fair that I bought the Nintendo Switch and took a day off work to celebrate its release.
Only, I’m now a homeowner. I now pay a mortgage, I pay bills, I pay expenses. I’ve just had to replace my oven, I’ve got a leaky Kitchen ceiling, and we’re looking at getting a new bed. We’ve got a lounge which is half done, we’ve got a garden which will soon be in the correct season to tend, and, most importantly, I’ve got a Study I want to fit up so I have somewhere to write. I could simply shirk all this; I could simply ‘treat’ myself. I didn’t, though.
In fact, as I write this (a few weeks ago from ‘now’; check me out being scheduled in advance!) my finger is hovering over the ‘Cancel Preorder’ button of the Amazon page. Part of me is hoping that some news will come out, some exciting new announcement, that might justify this Day One purchase to a my sensible adult mind. I know that’s not the case though, I know I can buy one later, I know it’ll be better value later, and I know my money is better off elsewhere. EDIT: This is a particularly painful edit, as Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild is now receiving absolutely stellar reviews and being regarded as an absolute masterpiece… and here I am without it… begrudgingly trying to find some silver lining… I’ll try to go on, but life is looking bleak…
The point I’m trying to make, I guess, is that Adulthood sneaks up on you and it shows itself in a variety of ways. It affects some people earlier than others, situations and circumstance have a way of moulding us, of helping us mould ourselves. You might argue that getting a mortgage was a bigger symbol than this, you might argue that my post is very much a “first world problem” and it undeniably is. I think it’s an example though, nonetheless. A few years ago, I couldn’t picture a Shaun who didn’t own the latest games, the latest consoles, and didn’t keep up with the latest news. That’s me though, that’s me right now. I’m still a gamer, I’m still spending more money than I should on games, but I’m a bit more sensible now… and I suppose that’s part of being an Adult.
Written by Shaun, age 27 and still not sure if he’s an ‘Adult’ yet.